As I faced another day of forcing myself out of the house and into the cold in the morning, I suddenly felt desparate for prayer. I started thinking about calling someone to ask for ... what? I didn't exactly know. I just knew that I've been thinking lately about wanting to be desparate for prayer, and now I was actually feeling desparate for prayer.
But I didn't make any calls. I thought about a book I had started reading last night, with a scripture reference that I had meant to look up but didn't at the time. The author mentioned she had preached a sermon in seminary on Numbers 6:22-27. I had wondered what a seminary student would find in Numbers to preach on in class?!
So this morning I looked it up. It's a blessing I am familiar with:
"The LORD bless you
and keep you;
the LORD make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace."
And I started praying it for myself, with some desparation, because I realized this is what my heart was longing for: May the Lord bless me ... May his face shine upon me ... and give me peace...
A selfish prayer? Try praying it for yourself and you'll find out.
-Candice
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I did it right after reading your post and the feeling that immediately washed over me was humility. It was not because I was reaching for humility, but because the words "May the Lord..." seemed so huge. I was utterly overwhelmed by how big God seemed and how small I felt. Small and special.
Thanks, Candice! What a lovely lesson :)
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